Am determined to refuse to be the victim of grief

Am determined to refuse to be the victim of grief
Originally uploaded by wildcats' fan.

I have returned to reality. The much needed vacation was nice, well, most of the time. Some other time it was filled with aggravation. What's new?

The drive to Myrtle Beach, South Carolina was a total pain in the a$$. It took us about 12 hours. 12 hours without smoking just effing killed me. We stopped couple of times to fill the gas up or to restroom break. Leena and I kept reminding ourselves of how nice it would be if it was just us two....We'd be smokin' away like chimneys LOL.

I just don't understand what the hype was all about Myrtle Beach. I mean, every freakin' summer, that place would be jam packed with bunch of teeny boppers or a.k.a college kids and people who pick Myrtle Beach for their summer vacation getaway spot. I mean, it's alright in my opinion, but it ain't all that. Seriously. I just don't get it at all. Yeah, the beach was clean and all but there wasn't any coconut trees and the water wasn't blue..it was more light brown. I have been pampered with the beautiful beaches and islands in Malaysia so Myrtle Beach didn't do a thing to me.

I was happy with the condo though. It was huge. It was a 2 bedroom apartment with kitchen, living and dining room, 2 bathrooms and it was equipped with complete kitchen appliances, utensils, dishwasher as well as washer and dryer. I love that. Traveling with a toddler, it's almost a necessity to have a washer and dryer easily accessed. The hotel's clean but too bad we didn't have ocean view. It would cost more points to stay in one of the rooms with ocean view.

There's a room with 4 computers and internet connection. Yeah, I know I was supposed to be on vacation but I just couldn't resist. I brought my laptop thinking that they'd have wi-fi in the room, yeah they do but you have to pay so much for a week which I thought a little ridiculous.

I played pool with Leena, we played scrabble like a thousand times. Ryan had a blast. That sucker just loves water, be it the ocean or swimming pool. He had a pretty good tan on him too. Being Asian, of course I don't like him getting darker LOL but his dad likes his color. Geesh!

I'm glad Leena came along cause it'd be boring without her. We cooked together and walked along the beach a few times. One morning, we got up super early to capture the sunrise, hence the picture next to this blog. It was worth waking up early to. It was just peaceful, quiet and gorgeous.

And now I'm back to reality....facing the faces that I really don't care to deal with and back into the hard life struggle. Oh well. Beggars can't be picky, right? I'm just I got some time to go far away from reality.

Leen

Fall already

Field of Purple
Originally uploaded by wildcats' fan.

I haven't been out taking pictures lately. For some reason, I'm just not in a mood or rather, I feel very uninspired. People say that photography is about transforming your feelings into art. To me, it's just a tool that deciphers my emotions at that very moment. It's also an outlet of emancipation.

The weather has been nasty here lately. It rained since Monday and Rick's been working 2nd. Fall is drawing near. I can almost smell the breeze of dried maple leaves. The sun hardly comes out, if it does, there's still breath of chill in the air. I absolutely love Fall. It's my favorite season. This may sound silly but it's just so romantic during the Fall. I'm not a big fan of Summer at all. I had enough sun growing up back home.

I need to be prepared for Halloween this year. Learned a lesson since last year's Halloween. Waited too long to get Ryan's costume and that poor child ended up being a frog. Poor thing. I haven't a clue on what costume to get him.

I'm excited to go on a much needed break this Friday. We're going to Myrtle Beach in SC and will be there for about a week. I'm so excited that Leena's coming with us. I'm not really excited about the beach, I just need a break without having to come into work and feel bored with absolutely nothing to do. I'm most excited about making sand castles with Ryan and Leena. Also, to walk in the beach at night and just chat with Leena....and probably reminisce about the bad and especially good. We both need this.

Signing off,
Leen