In Memory of Ezri Shahrizan

In Memory of Ezri Shahrizan
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I can't believe it's been a month since Yang passed away. I miss him so much. I have my breakdowns every now and then. I never knew it's gonna be this hard. Letting go is the hardest that I've ever done in my life. Every time I see his pictures, just breaks my heart.

Yang, I pray for your eternal peace and I pray that God will place your soul among the good. May God bless your soul. I love you very much.

Stop being a whimpy

I never asked for any sympathy when Yang died from anybody. Empathy would be nice but I wasn't expecting it. But if it was coming from your friends, you'd treasure it even more. I was a little taken aback by few people who claim to be my friends. Not a word, not a call and not even a message on my email about the traumatic event that occured to me here recently. I know it was bad of me for expecting, but it was only natural. I know I'm such a weak person, hoping to gain sympathy but I thought that's what friends do.....be there for each other especially in times like this. I was ruminating the gist of friendships. Maybe it's time for me to just drop any expectations whatsoever

Thank you for being a friend

I got up super early on Saturday to go yard-saling with Leena. We hit a few decent ones; I wouldn't say great. We didn't really find any outstanding one. But we had fun. We had a plan to go to Kak Maria's tomorrow but we changed our plan. I took Leena home with me and stopped @ Walmart on the way to get Ryan a baby pool to take to Kak Maria's. Just to keep Ryan occupied while we fix lunch.

We set the pool and we started cooking. I've never cooked any real dish outside before. All I ever fixed on the grill were hotdogs and bratwurst. I must say, it was a lot of fun. I started off with fixing the Nasi Lemak first. Took the ingredients outside and I started fixing the "sambal", kacang goreng, kangkung and jantung pisang. I thought it was funny cause usually people grill simple food but not us. We fixed the whole course LOL! Boy, I could only imagine what her neighbors must be thinking. We had late lunch on her deck under the umbrella and I ate with my hands, of course. Just like good 'ol times.

Oh my Gosh!! She also bought me "jeruk jering" and petai for Leena!! That got me laughing. Heck! We were eating "local food" on her freaking deck!! Oh not to mention, she also bought durian just for me. That was so sweet of her. She took Leena grocery shopping at a Vietnam store on 3rd st the other day. Ryan was taking his nap so right after we had lunch, we were just chilling inside and chatted. I miss hanging out with another friend like this. Used to do this back home and I must say, I like it a lot.

Maria is an Indonesian lady I met at the Oxmoor Mall 2 months ago. She was talking to another Indonesian lady and Leena noticed. She was too "chickened" to say hello to them. I did and us four started talking like we've known each other for years. Maria lost her husband a year and half ago to cancer. So she's all by herself. She lives in a very lovely home. I love her house but too bad for her, she lives there alone. Her house is super super clean. I can see that she's a clean freak but not the one that annoys you. One could only imagine how lonely she gets. So having us as her new friends sure brought new joy to her. Ones that she can get along with and share few things in common.

She's been living here in this country for over 12 years. She once lived in Philadelphia and then moved to KY 5 years later. She's not real close to her siblings and other family members and she regards Leena and I like sisters. It's so much fun having another person to speak Malay with. Those Malaysians that I met last Raya; well, let's just say we had absolutely nothing in common.

I'm glad I have found another friend here in a Foreign Land. Finally, I've someone to do things with. She's a really nice person. She's generous and very kind. I'm blessed and thank God for giving me this opportunity to have a new friend. It's always nice to have another person whom you enjoy a decent conversation.